Uncomfortable Talks

As soon as the conspirators left, my wonderful wife Portia comes to speak with me. She keeps saying things like she knows i'm troubled and such. Im not to much of a emotional person, and that she can't understand that. She tends to get really upset and such when I dont tell her. She kept asking me to tell her my secret. I would love to tell her, and get those things out but I cannot. She got very upset this time to the point where she stabbed herself in the thigh. Then I think I was actually gonna open up and tell her, but Someone knocked at the door. It was like that show, Saved by the bell, just saved by the knock.

Crazy Nights

I could not sleep even though I've tried. My mind just seemed to race. When i told Cassius it bothered me to think that he would be leader, it felt good at the time, but now I'm a mess. At this point in time I'm very much so convinced that Caesar must die. I awaken my servant to fetch me a candle for my study. When he comes back he gives me a letter that is from the roman people and it basically tells me that i need to kill Caesar. See what did i tell you, I'm always right( =. Cassius drops by to say what up and, brings some friends along with him. They wanted to take an oath, i was like what?!?! No thanks, I'm good. Then out of nowhere Cassius comes off with saying that we should Kill Mark Antony as well!! I cant believe this, but as noble as i am, i explained that We can't kill anyone other then Caesar.

Is he Crowned?

I didn't know I was hurting my friends the closest people to me. Today when I told Cassius I wasn't staying for festivities he told me how he felt. He said he felt as though I was not nice to him as much I used to be. I was like listen its nothing personal, I'm just dealing with some things right now and I'm a little troubled. 

I don't feel like being around tons of people, chilling and what not for awhile. Then we got into the whole subject of Caesar being made the leader of Rome. I kinda let it slip that it worried me a tad bit if he was gonna be leader or not. Trust me when I speak it, it is not out of hate. I have nothing against Caesar but something about him gives me a vibe that doesn't seem to be right. 

Guess who happened to pop up as Cassius and I were talking? CASCA !!! He gossiped a bit & told me that the people offered Caesar the crown three times but he refused. Why would he do that ?!?!? ugh I'll never understand these wanna-be leaders.