The End Which Finally Came

 Messala, myself, and other officers find Cassius dead. This must have been part of Caesar's revenge. I know that we are defeated. There's nothing more I can do. I know what needs to happen now. I simply ask Clitus, Dardanius, and Volumnius to kill me, but they refused. The enemies approaching made me nervous so I asked them to go. I persuaded my servant Strato to hold a sword while I run into it killing myself.  

Wrong Messages

I was doing a little bit of peeking. I was basically spying on Octavius's army. I needed to see their strengths and weakness's. I mean in order for me and Cassius to get ahead and defeat them we must know what to expect. I believe that Octavius's troops lack fighting spirit. I sent Messala to Cassius with a secret message. I explained that he should make a surprise attack on Octavius's army. It cant go wrong!

Meeting In Philippi

Both Cassius, myself, and our armies marched to Philippi. Before this battle began all of the commanders had a little discussion. It was basically a bunch of insults. Mark Antony and Octavius left challenging Cassius and I to battle when we dare. At that point I was very angry. I knew it was time to fight. Cassius asked me what am I gonna do if we happen to lose the battle. I told him that only cowards take suicide as the way out. Although I will never return to Rome as a captive. We said some farewells, it was the saddest thing I've done yet. We both knew that it was a huge possibility that we'd never see each other again.

My Speech

I get to the marketplace to deliver my speech, and I notice how crazy it is. I go out and I start my speech. I explain that I really didn't hate Caesar. I tried to explain that I did in fact love and respect Caesar, just that I love Rome more. I went on to explain that Caesar was too ambitious. I said how he would have enslaved his countrymen. I included that the same knife I used to kill Caesar, I will gladly use it on myself if thats what they want. They approved, like I knew they would. I figured it couldn't hurt so before I left, I told the people to stay and listen to Mark Antony's speech.

Explaining the Pain

Mark Antony's servant came to ask me if it is safe that Antony come speak with me. I figured it couldn't hurt, so i said why not. Mark Antony said that if we were gonna kill him, then to kill him then and lay him next Caesar. I reassured Antony we aren't gonna kill him. I told him that i wanted to make him one of us. Cassius even offers him a spot in the new government. He kept pushing for an answer, so i assured him that his questions will be answered. Antony then asks me for permission to take Caesar's body to the marketplace and deliver a funeral speech. i agreed even though Cassius objected. I want to deliver my speech first.

The Stabbing

We knew that Caesar wouldn't let Publius Cimber back to Rome. As me and Cassius added our pleas to let him back the other conspirators moved closer to him. I realized he really needed to go, when he said "I'm like a northern star". He thinks he is like a god or something. Then everyone started to murder him. I couldn't believe this was actually happening. I was the last one to stab Caesar. After i stabbed him, he died. It was very intense. 

Friends aren't always Good

The conspirators and myself went to Caesar's on the ides of March, also the day we planned the assassination. We were all gonna walk to the Senate together. Caesar is so nice, I think im starting to feel guilty for what im going to be doing later. I just need to keep in mind its for the better of Rome. On our way out Caesar offers all of us wine. That was a kind gesture. Its sad that he thinks we are all his true friends and we're planning to kill him.

Uncomfortable Talks

As soon as the conspirators left, my wonderful wife Portia comes to speak with me. She keeps saying things like she knows i'm troubled and such. Im not to much of a emotional person, and that she can't understand that. She tends to get really upset and such when I dont tell her. She kept asking me to tell her my secret. I would love to tell her, and get those things out but I cannot. She got very upset this time to the point where she stabbed herself in the thigh. Then I think I was actually gonna open up and tell her, but Someone knocked at the door. It was like that show, Saved by the bell, just saved by the knock.

Crazy Nights

I could not sleep even though I've tried. My mind just seemed to race. When i told Cassius it bothered me to think that he would be leader, it felt good at the time, but now I'm a mess. At this point in time I'm very much so convinced that Caesar must die. I awaken my servant to fetch me a candle for my study. When he comes back he gives me a letter that is from the roman people and it basically tells me that i need to kill Caesar. See what did i tell you, I'm always right( =. Cassius drops by to say what up and, brings some friends along with him. They wanted to take an oath, i was like what?!?! No thanks, I'm good. Then out of nowhere Cassius comes off with saying that we should Kill Mark Antony as well!! I cant believe this, but as noble as i am, i explained that We can't kill anyone other then Caesar.

Is he Crowned?

I didn't know I was hurting my friends the closest people to me. Today when I told Cassius I wasn't staying for festivities he told me how he felt. He said he felt as though I was not nice to him as much I used to be. I was like listen its nothing personal, I'm just dealing with some things right now and I'm a little troubled. 

I don't feel like being around tons of people, chilling and what not for awhile. Then we got into the whole subject of Caesar being made the leader of Rome. I kinda let it slip that it worried me a tad bit if he was gonna be leader or not. Trust me when I speak it, it is not out of hate. I have nothing against Caesar but something about him gives me a vibe that doesn't seem to be right. 

Guess who happened to pop up as Cassius and I were talking? CASCA !!! He gossiped a bit & told me that the people offered Caesar the crown three times but he refused. Why would he do that ?!?!? ugh I'll never understand these wanna-be leaders.